this blogskin looks and feels so emoooo that i can't really take it myself. but i like the layout. and i like the band. so band > emo. okay i didn't really understand that but nevermind. so pretty much has gone by. mid years are coming up and term 2 is going to end. time flies. i don't even know whether that's a good or bad thing.
increasing workload. and my grades are declining pretty badly. just got back the 3 science papers a few days ago. i didn't do well at all. but I guess I'm numb to the disappointment already.
aaaaand. i'm pretty much annoyed since yesterday. for the benefit of peace(and other reasons), i shall just stfu.
napfa was pretty much a disappointment. call me a perfectionist(though i'm not that at all in many many many other stuff) but i'm not satisfied with 29 points, especially when it was only 3 more cm to an A in sbj and i've been getting a perfect score for 3 years. screwwwwwit. ):. oh well. something to work for till next year. at least it's something I don't detest.
rs report due next week and i guess it's hardcore chionging for the report this weekend. gah. mid years in 2 weeks and I don't exactly feel prepared. been falling asleep in class and that's nooooooot good. i guess some teachers just speak like they are singing lullabies. irony is that i totally dont want to sleep but I just can't help it. so pretty often i get those muscle spasms/fits before I jolt awake from my semi-conscious state of mind which screams at me to wake up. ink thinks it's creepy. i think it would look scary.
and it's not as if i sleep late. or that i don't get enough sleep. i mean i get 7 hours on average of sleep. and the next day i just feel like i had a fat cow sitting at the tip of my eyelids. I think what matters is the time i wake up, not the amount of sleep i get. waking up and seeing darkness gets me demoralised every morning.
I don't like school. ):
training has been reduced to only once a week. kind of a good thing so I have more time for my work. so I guess I have to go jogging more often on my own.
aaaand. I've been hooked on to this song. I think it's kind of mainstream. but welllll. (metal is still > than others)
long walk home - this day and age.
finding myself in a place i've never been
where i don't know myself or anyone else
i can dream about the past
or i can just let it go
i lost track of time five days ago
what is it about you that makes me want to stay
is it all the love
or isit just the pain
don't leave me now
we've come too far
just to set our eyes on a new star
i'll ride on clouds
till you come down
just promise me you'll always leave the ground
in the drivers seat is my self-esteem
where i know that the heart should be
i'm cleaning off these shelves
to show you how i've changed
and if all goes well tonight we'll call for rain
i'm moving pass the past
at the slowest of speeds
hoping that our loves
exceeds our insecurities
don't leave me now
we've come too far
just to set our eyes on a new star
i'll ride on clouds
till you come down
just promise me you'll always leave the ground
finding myself finding myself finding myself finding myself finding myself find yourself
i'm running in circles
it's you i'm thinking of
and if you don't want to talk
then this isn't love
a new destination
i'll say my goodbyes with my back turned to you
at least i know we tried
don't leave me now
we've come too far
just to set our eyes on a new star
i'll ride on clouds
till you come down
just promise me you'll always leave the ground
: )
